What does it mean?

What does it mean to be real?
What does it mean to be beautiful?
What does it mean to be perfect?
What does it mean to be okay?
What does it mean to be vulnerable?
What does it mean to be honest?

To whom should I show my true colors?
To whom should I trust with my thoughts?
To whom should I bear my soul?
To whom should I be honest with?
To whom should I reveal my festering wounds?
To whom should I tell my problems?

Where can I be myself?
Where can I find someone to love?
Where can I find someone to love me?
Where can I go to be away from it all?
Where can I take off my mask?
Where can I be free?

When will I trust again?
When will I be real again?
When will I be myself?
When will I not?
When will I love again?
When will I take another risk?

Why do I bottle it all up inside?
Why do I release it all at the wrong times?
Why do I hate myself?
Why do I not trust?
Why do I fear so many things?
Why do I run?